I am currently studying to get my B.S. in Criminal Justice. No matter how much I enjoy what I’m learning, I don’t see myself with a career in criminal justice. I can’t wait to graduate from college next spring and really focus on what I want to do for the rest of my life. And it’s music. I finally realized it earlier this year. I’m not looking for fame and fortune. I’ve learned so much about myself in the past few months. I’m in a completely different place from where I was last month. I fell in love with Sara Bareilles. Again. Even more. I was blessed with an awesome job that helps people focus on what really matters to them. Eventually, it helped me realize what really matters to me.
A recurrent theme in all my classes: this world is a shitty place. I want to do my best in making it a bit less shitty. Music is the way to do it. For me, at least.
You may ask me, “why even bother finishing school? It’s just a waste of time for you now.” My answer: it isn’t. My parents worked so hard for my brother and me to have a good life. I owe it to them. I owe them peace of mind that I’ll be well-off when I’m on my own. When it’s their time to leave. I owe that to them.
Anyway, this has always a big dream of mine. Up until last month, it’s more of a reality - something I really believe that I could achieve. I’m holding myself accountable. I wouldn’t have made this realization if it wasn’t for my job and my loved ones. They believe in me way more than I believe in myself.
Just this past Sunday, I had a very long talk with my brothers. Basically, for 3 hours, they told me that the last thing they want me to be is regretful for not going for it - that they truly do believe in me.
I’ve been listening to Sara Bareilles lately. A lot. This woman is teaching me to be Brave in standing up for what I believe - in chasing my dream. Her new direction and her story behind it is so inspiring. She is the definition of “action cures fear.” I hope one day that I will be as brave as her.
I don’t know what the future holds, but I know it’ll be great. Even if it doesn’t work out, I’ll be happy knowing that I did my best in doing what I love.
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I have this weird theory that some people are drawn to each other because their atoms were near each other when the universe was created and over time the same atoms keep coming back together
DID YOU JUST SCIENTIFICALLY EXPLAIN SOUL MATES?!
It’s too early to be thinking about this shit